that's what Neil really wanted to say to me yesterday but didn't.
My anger over my computer finally reached the boiling point and I lost it. I know Neil was trying to fix it. It just seems to me that if there is an impossible route to take -- Neil will find it and choose it. That drives me crazy. I like to take the most efficient way. If that costs us a few dollars and cents so be it -- I'd rather not have the headache. It got to the point where I decided to get out of his way for the rest of the day.
I needed a serious pick me up and looking out the window and staring out at the grey and rain, I
decided to retreat to my bedroom and flip through my movie library. First up was, Under the Tuscan Sun. I've never read the novel but this movie is such a guilty pleasure. After watching it, my anger had receded somewhat. However, when I left the safe sanctuary of my room and looked at Neil swearing at my computer -- I annouced that I didn't need a man in my life. I was going to runaway to Tuscany, fix up a run-down villa, and get my grove back. Yeah -- Neil was not impressed. He sort of snorted at me.
So back to the bedroom I went. Obviously, I still needed to calm down. So I chose another movie. This time I chose, Love Actually. Well this movie turned me into a weepy, snivelling suck. My favourite storyline is the one with Liam Neeson and his stepson.
- Thanks. Plan didn't work, though. - Tell her, then. - Tell her what? - That you love her. -No way. Anyway, they fly tonight. -Even better. Sam, you've got nothing to lose and you'll always regret it if you don't. I never told your mum enough. I should have told her every day because she was perfect every day. You've seen the films, kiddo. It ain't over till it's over.
-OK, Dad. Let's do it. Let's go get the shit kicked out of us by love.
I love that last line.
It cheered me up -- the whole movie cheered me up.
This time, when I left my room I was nice
-- even though my computer is still not quite right.
